Can I start again?

It's been a while since my last blog and I just felt like updating today. Well I can say that the past is the past. I can't just go back and turned back everything, but just move on in life yannno? Time isn't going to wait for me, I wait for the time. Anyway, recently I met this coool chick and she is hella chill. Officially met her yesterday and she is prettty cool, cute, and alll....well anywayy yaa I still got to chill with her more thoo but yaaa.. <33 much LOL Well another thing I got to talk about is love really worth the time? Seriously, I recently learned that some people dont give a shit about you and when you find out you feel even more shit. That person you like would use you as a GOODFRIEND then when your not useful anymore they just throw you away like trash you feel? Looks isn't everything because without a good personality everything will be shit in the long run. Don't fall for those people who uses you, because when they hurt you...you think they care? Nahhh...they can care less. Shoutout to all my friends, cause they are the ones who keep me going.
Im out

As The Day Ends.

I'm not scared of lions, tiger, the dark, but I'm scared of loving her. But the thing is she is she, I'm I. As the day goes by she says hi to others, but IGNORES me? WTF is that? I love you with all my soul but you still act like you don't know. She did what no-one else has...I don't know why but I can't stop loving you. There is no such thing as love cause all its brings is hurt! It's unfortunate you choose him over me, but you are always be in my memories even if I'm not yours. I'm jealous and you broke my heart. You ignored me over others, but I understand. Letting go doesn't mean it's over or it's been started over again, but it's having another chance to see if it was really meant to be. I don't care what anybody thinks of us, all I want is pure love. Is it too much to ask?

I'm tired of loving you, but I'll love you in my heart til the end, til my day comes. Time keeps ticking, each tick of the clock is a different thought of you. Love you much, even if I'm not yours.

Out. Wish you the best.

Alone.

Well as I'm typing this I'm in class and have nothing to do. This morning it started out way better than yesterday. First Macus and Amy were waiting at lincoln market and I kicked the door cause it wasn't open yet. Then Amy started yelling..."damn it now he is not going to let me buy chips." then blah blah blah blah got to school then went to the front with Eljay, Kevin C, and Garvin. Couple minutes later I saw the girl I "used" to like and I just went -_- sigh. You know...everybody is asking me are you ok and I'm worried...and thanks for asking. But i think I'm really lying to myself. Can I really put this down? I really ain't sure what is going on anymore. Sigh. i will keep this blog updated tonight. keep you guys updated. Out

Still Alive & Hopefully Will Stay Alive.

Today really isn't the day for a update on this blog, but I just have to express or put my feelings somewhere else other than inside myself. You know someone earlier just IM me and it really killed my night. I wasn't really in the mood already and it just made it worst. Here's how the story goes...a girl and a guy.

Girl = the person i like
Guy = my friend

My friend IM me and told me something I didn't need to hear and it just hurted bad. He told me something about the girl I liked and blah ladadada. When he messaged me and I saw this message I was literally heated. I didn't know where to put my anger, but good thing I got my friend here to loosen my anger man. You know who you people are! lol So yaa...life really is hard. I just can't stand how he and her is just communicating so good and look at this lone ass here sitting and typing this blog right now. It ain't even funny forreals and no lie. Life isn't fair and I think it would never, ever be fair. Well, I guess I can call this jealousy and i hate this fuking feeling. I guess I just have to let myself go and let it be. I don't even give a fuk no more if they really are together. Life is too short for me to worry about em fukers. I can live without them. Fk life. Im out. Late

Life without your parents

Today is one of those days that I need to write a blog again.

Today a GIRL friend of mine sent me a link and it was a quiz. LINK: http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html I took the quiz all the way without cheating and this quiz has touched me a lot. Especially with the background music is just so depressing. So this song made me thought of my parents. Currently my life is at their best moments and I do not want it to stop, because of my parents. But but....what if one day my parents is not with me anymore?! What would I do? All I know is that life isn't going to be same no more, because my parents are a part of my life. When they are gone, am I going to be in tears or tears? This is a question that cannot be answered at the moment. But I know for sure is that I will miss them very much if they leave me one day. I remembered my dad as a hardworking man who taught me not to lie, cheat, steal, and be respectful. When I do something wrong, he yells and yells at me...and I truly hate that. But the thing I realized is that he is yelling at me for a reason and its a good reason. He is trying to teach me something and I'm not facing the truth of it. That is a process of life I guess that I'm going through...once you step into life it isn't going to be easy anymore; you will have to face certain things you do not want to face. Life without your parents.