As The Day Ends.

I'm not scared of lions, tiger, the dark, but I'm scared of loving her. But the thing is she is she, I'm I. As the day goes by she says hi to others, but IGNORES me? WTF is that? I love you with all my soul but you still act like you don't know. She did what no-one else has...I don't know why but I can't stop loving you. There is no such thing as love cause all its brings is hurt! It's unfortunate you choose him over me, but you are always be in my memories even if I'm not yours. I'm jealous and you broke my heart. You ignored me over others, but I understand. Letting go doesn't mean it's over or it's been started over again, but it's having another chance to see if it was really meant to be. I don't care what anybody thinks of us, all I want is pure love. Is it too much to ask?

I'm tired of loving you, but I'll love you in my heart til the end, til my day comes. Time keeps ticking, each tick of the clock is a different thought of you. Love you much, even if I'm not yours.

Out. Wish you the best.

Alone.

Well as I'm typing this I'm in class and have nothing to do. This morning it started out way better than yesterday. First Macus and Amy were waiting at lincoln market and I kicked the door cause it wasn't open yet. Then Amy started yelling..."damn it now he is not going to let me buy chips." then blah blah blah blah got to school then went to the front with Eljay, Kevin C, and Garvin. Couple minutes later I saw the girl I "used" to like and I just went -_- sigh. You know...everybody is asking me are you ok and I'm worried...and thanks for asking. But i think I'm really lying to myself. Can I really put this down? I really ain't sure what is going on anymore. Sigh. i will keep this blog updated tonight. keep you guys updated. Out

Still Alive & Hopefully Will Stay Alive.

Today really isn't the day for a update on this blog, but I just have to express or put my feelings somewhere else other than inside myself. You know someone earlier just IM me and it really killed my night. I wasn't really in the mood already and it just made it worst. Here's how the story goes...a girl and a guy.

Girl = the person i like
Guy = my friend

My friend IM me and told me something I didn't need to hear and it just hurted bad. He told me something about the girl I liked and blah ladadada. When he messaged me and I saw this message I was literally heated. I didn't know where to put my anger, but good thing I got my friend here to loosen my anger man. You know who you people are! lol So yaa...life really is hard. I just can't stand how he and her is just communicating so good and look at this lone ass here sitting and typing this blog right now. It ain't even funny forreals and no lie. Life isn't fair and I think it would never, ever be fair. Well, I guess I can call this jealousy and i hate this fuking feeling. I guess I just have to let myself go and let it be. I don't even give a fuk no more if they really are together. Life is too short for me to worry about em fukers. I can live without them. Fk life. Im out. Late